Journey Into Motherhood

From 9/19/12

What a whirl wind the last couple months have been. We went from a happily married couple, to a happily married couple expecting their first baby, to a happily married couple expecting TWINS!!! I still feel I need to put an emphasis on TWINS because at times, it is still so shocking to me. However, I feel beyond blessed. To know that God gave me this precious gift...wow...I couldn't be more grateful. If He has that much trust in me, I know I can do it. Of course, being our first babies I am intimidated. I refuse to let my worry take over though. I know His plan is better than what I could have ever imagined...He has given Leif and I twins after all!

I recently had to drop my Voice and Diction class. Something I was so excited to start. It was finally a step in the right direction towards my dream of being an SPLA and one day an SLP. I had to really put things in perspective though for me, Leif and the babies. Although I soooo enjoyed the class. I did not like the drive home. My class ended at 10 which put me home around 11:30...I would sleep in a little the following day, but not enough to catch up. I was worried of getting too tired on the way home, it just wasn't safe. At first it felt like a failure, I never quit or drop anything I start out to do, but then I also looked at it as what is best for my emotional health right now, as well as how this would affect the pregnancy and my SLEEP! I want to enjoy my pregnancy, I want to enjoy my free time with Leif before the babies are here. I will go back, and I am hoping by the time I do, maybe there will be a program at MSJC, close to home. This is another one of God's timing. He will put me where He wants me to be.

I am exploring options to work from home when our sweet babies arrive. Having two really changed the game plan! I thought with one, no big deal I'll figure out how to go back to work part time, or what not, trips will be easy, it won't be tooooo huge of an adjustment. I knew of course it would be a change, but nothing we couldn't handle...then we got thrown for a loop! Two babies means, two car seats, two beds (eventually), a bigger truck, two mouths to feed, and two little butts to diaper...oh man! I know we can do this. We are so blessed to be surrounded with love and support from both of our families and all of our friends.

May the twins games begin!  I can't wait to meet them!

I am 12 weeks today :) Oh! I am getting a teensy tiny belly, although I feel like my fat is just being pushed out further...I want it to be round so I look pregs and not beer bellied!